Happy Thanksgiving to those in the States.
Part 2:
I wrote today’s poem because earlier this year I ran into a lady I had not seen in a while.
It is not really related to Thanksgiving, but I guess our blogs can have any themes that we want, right?
I always minimized this person’s “touch of coldness” as her response to being dealt a few bad hands, but then I saw that her “hands dealt” were not much worse than what most folks experience – and maybe some self-care was need for this person to grow.
I am still wrapping my head around what I observed (and felt in her cold presence) and the following poem is what unfolded (just musing here, ok) as I was thinking about it today.
I might NOT see her again for a long time, but maybe this is what I would tell her if I could slip a note UNDER THE DOOR for her to read:
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Self-Care Poem
I met a lady
who became quite the beyotch
she was sick and tired
of being sick and tired
she was drained
annoyed
and
“Done”
So she drew HER boundaries
pissed off annoyed…
chased most people away
because that is what you do –
when you are “done”
Those she could “not” chase away
she slowly lashed out
little by little
like that dripping drop
other times lashed out in waves
anger with a side of hate
!
As the years rolled on…
more annoyed she became
more hurt was ladled out
while still helping those in her path
and helping many, she does
so she has lots of love…
helping family members
in dire need
ye it is with leaking misery
oozing at the seams…
More time passed
more lack of self-care…
allowed the beyotch side to feed
and an Eeyore mood
with joy extinguishing stampede
cynic comments
sloppily sprinkled…
the thud of her affect
has essence of steel!
She did not care
or did not realize
detachment was her choice
detachment helped her get by
because this is what you do
when you are sick and tired
of being sick and tired
!
Let us not be like this lady
let us not accept being “Done”
Let us not be the hurt that hurts back
let’s pause
look inside
and at least try….
to heal
and cope with what has ailed us
let’s find small beauty
tiny bits of fun
life giving Son
let’s do some self-care
stress released and deep lung air
that helps bring back life
and cope with mounting strife
and yes, we can draw boundaries too
needed for a healthy milieu-
but don’t shut others out
this is not what life is about
we need each other
and it is worth effort
to work on self
like others do too!
So look in the mirror
see through and through
do you even see your misery?
your burnout blamed on everyone else?
you have to open your eyes to the real “you”
not the perceived you
but see the one who minimizes and blames
do you even see how you come across?
all bitter and filled with tight
edgy, defensive – ready to fight…
Let’s all do needed self-care
so we can have a warmer essence
soften others with a touch of love
instead of the iron glove!
Fix your burnout, dear lady…
so you CAN care again
it will help YOU in the end.
We all need to do our self-care
to prevent a life that feels only despair
Let us at least try
to work on self….
not just adding more to pain shelf
examine your
tunnel vision
denial
faulty thinking
casting blame
flaw finding
put down spirit
ugliness
and deep pain!
Let the heaviness go, my precious friend
Find resources
role models
I even have some stuff I could send
Little changes happen easier than we think
just trying can lift the lid to eliminate stink
Take baby steps on the path of self-care
you will find the unexpected greeting you there
don’t accept DONE
don’t stay dejected…
you could have been growing
with warmth resurrected
if you stopped dishing out blame
stopped shutting everyone out.
Maybe if you took a hobby
found some wise counsel
dove into helpful books
and put in some edifying stuff
you can allow the SUN back in
and stop being so rough.
well maybe
just maybe
bitterness can be put outside in the cold
and a little bit of joy you could behold
maybe
just maybe
sloppy emotions can be checked
while tenderness is fetched
A smile looks good on your face
and it is health to your bones
don’t withdraw – give things grace
maybe
just maybe
you can be open to feedback
accountability can become your friend
after it is invited and allowed to come in!
because after truth is rejected as absurd
there is churn
then the message is heard.
as we lift the flap to release
truth brings peace
clarity and self-care
a serious affair
and yes
we don’t always “know how”
but we can learn!
it takes detective work
it hurts, might burn
but self-care washes clean
the stanky buildup and gunk
vital signs come back
reducing the FUNK.
Don’t stay stuck
resist the attack!
don’t accept “Done”
Give that mentality a smack.
Don’t reject everyone
haven’t you noticed your mind says it is always someone else?
maybe not…
maybe all that heaviness inside
has made you quite blind
because yeah, we get it – you’re fried!
your drained
had all that shit happen
yeah, I feel bad for you too
but now you know what you have to do…
start working on you…
um, oh yes, yes you do –
and no, I am not yet through
Life is not all fun
but it is not all gloom
there can be bloom
it is not all the heavy stuff you’re bringing
I am not saying to go around singing
even though if you did
it surely could help
so let out a yelp
songs forces out the blues!
Tunes help fine tune the wonderful you.
Self awareness is key…
so check on yourself
see how you speak…
as you think everyone else is so flawed
some thought of as stupid-
you fail to see the growth of others
keeping labels you gave 20 years ago
while your mounting angst
makes you a big ol’ crank
and you sort of come across as nice at times
but then have lines that grind
saying things like
“It’s that side of the family that is all disjointed”
“They visit me too much, I don’t go knocking on their door!”
“I guess I don’t mind helping, but we even have to pay for the stamp and those add up….”
“…. well…. You are too careless with your I love You’s – that is not how I use my words”
“I don’t have burnout. NO! Why the heck would you say that. Geez…”
yes, messages behind those words
reveal all that stored up hurt
Oh please-
dear drained one,
please get the self-care you need
do it for you
don’t do it for me
Do it for those around you
the ones exposed to your stanky seeds
Because as you live
scattering sloppy little digs
you leave hurt in your path
bad feelings in your wake
and what’s worse
for goodness sake
is that it is not good for your health
you are not fully “alive”
with all that gloom inside!
When you operate with such apathy
you hurt folks casually
So come on now
it is time to thrive
don’t be so jive
start thinking about your thinking
and assess your behavior
then take baby steps
but PLEASE don’t stay “Done”
Get the self-care you need
because I think you still bleed
and much wonderful life lies ahead
Don’t only see through a veil of dread.
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y.prior 2016
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have a nice day and for more doors this week
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Happy Thanksgiving !
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Loved “sick and tired of being sick and tired” Well put and your poem is a whole lot of sound advice. Yet isnt it ironical, those who need it most will in all likelihood never read it or empathize with it. Once while trying to pep up someone who liked to crib, complain and belittle, I was stunned when she said, ‘dont take this away from me. I enjoy this very much.’ It has set me thinking ever since perhaps there are people who enjoy being unhappy? What we think is unhappy is their happy place? I somehow cannot still wrap my head around this – I dont know how to deal with this person. She is a very dear friend and to me unhappy, which makes me sad. But she says that this is her happiness, then it makes me even sadder for all the negativity she spews drags me down – as you can see very messy and confusing. Happy Thanksgiving 🙂
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Hey DawD!
Thanks again for your comment – and I think you might be quite right – those who need something like this will usually not be the ones reading it.
It is interesting that your friend said to not take it away…
Sometimes (not all the time) they still might really want to be better – but familiarity can be a soothing friend-
And then coping mechanisms kick in and sometimes anger is revealed thru a statement like that – you know – maybe deep down the resentment got so bad it settled in and then acceptance allows survival .
Then the person identifies with it almost as a personality trait that is to be accepted and adapted to – argh!
Who knows – but do wish “wellness” resources were more available for people before it goes on and on and on ….
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Yes – ‘argh’ sums it up pretty neatly 😂 Have a super day 🙂
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Happy Thanksgiving and that poor doggy in the gif 🙂
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I know – right? But the doggy did wink so I think he was comfy (or saying woof! I liked your latest picfair photo) at your pic fair site:
https://www.picfair.com/users/marantophotography
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Happy thanksgiving!
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Thanks and you too A
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Happy Thanksgiving!
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Thanks and happy thanksgiving your way 😊✌🏼️🍁🍁🍁🍁
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Who could resist the Samba Queen terrier? 🙂 I was lured in for a party, Yvette. But found much care and seriousness. I do hope your friend finds a better way to be. Happy Thanksgiving, sweetheart!
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I know Jo – the poem is a bit serious and heavy – but it all flowed as I was posting and well – thanks for stopping by and Samba Queen says woof gobble woof 🍁
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Happy Thanksgiving, Yvette. I think we all know someone like the one in your poem. They try to drain us, as they themselves are drained. But that feeling is a choice, as you so aptly describe.
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Hi Norah – thanks for the feedback
And I don’t think it is completely a choice – like maybe the default is “done” and folks get stuck – and then things build as they don’t know what to do – so I have grace – believe me I do- but in this case i think a choice NOW must be made
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To claw out of it
To not stay stuck
Ya know?
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Definitely!
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I thank you for the Thanksgiving greeting, but that poor Dog/Turkey looks rather embarrassed!
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Happy Thanksgiving.
(It is perfectly fine that you can have any themes you like, at least from my perspective.)
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Thanks YC – appreciate the grace – and I am trying to keep my posts coming from the heart as opposed to thinking too much about what might “be” better
Have a great day and very thankful to be blog friends
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Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours 🙂
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Thanks norm and to you too!
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Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family! ❤
I like the poem and I think everybody can relate to it, we've all met people like the lady you're describing. I agree with what Dahlia said, in some cases misery is their own special breed of happiness, and they wrap themselves in it as though it were a nice, cozy, protective blanket. Making them change is taking their joy away, especially since some find great delight in spreading their unhappiness around. Dealing with such people is exhausting, even if you understand how they function. On a different note, I see a very strong connection between your poem and the holiday you're celebrating – after all, doesn't it all come down to the inability or unwillingness to let in those good things in one's life, be thankful for them and perhaps once in a while focus on them, rather than on all the tragic events?…
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Hi Ana – I enjoyed your comment so much – even tho I just found it in the spam folder – I am starting to check the spam and trash folders more because so many seem to plop there.
And the lady about “dealing with them is exhausting even if we understand” is so true – and might even lead to where we have to draw boundaries to protect what we are exposed to….
And I know that we can never “make” folks change – but sometimes (not all) I have think some folks accept too much and passively assume the hurt person is “enjoying” their misery – or we might assume they are too far gone to reach – or most of us don’t know “what” to say or do (because some of these situations are complex and then gets more intense with defensiveness and heightened emotions – and even fear – because some angry people can scare the sh** out of people)
And so I think even the toughest, meanest, and grumpiest person has a chance to do self- work and get the care they need. But often don’t because there are few resources to help – and because there is little accountability as patterns are forged and habits grow – to where we juts say “that is just how he is…” or it is accepted they are “set in their ways” – and I am sure I have a naive optimism believing all folks can improve even a tiny bit! I do believe people are reachable – even those so far gone with years of being a harsh and yucky person- and this poem was an outpouring of that belief-
Now how much a person changes – or even they do – depends on them of course – but with all my heart I believe people need more loving accountability – need us to speak up and call out their behavior – and need us to draw boundaries but also stick around if they are willing to at least try – and at least try and see how they deflect – detach- and diss others so much.
And the timing of this poem had nothing to do with thanksgiving at all. Instead – it was months after seeing two different people – in different places – who lived in so much self-denial- and after seeing them this year – my counselor mind was pondering much! About the way they view their behavior and their life. So even though it was mainly about the one person, it was inspired by a couple of people who I know both need a wake up call about some needed self awareness!!
The poem also was an outpouring of our Lady by the River book – which has me churning such topics this fall….
Whew
Thanks again for the comment Ana
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I know what you mean about the comment issue, I also had several delivered to the spam folder for no good reason…
Anyway, so much can be said on the topic we were discussing. I agree, boundaries are absolutely necessary, otherwise the person trying to help risks ending up worse than the person they’re helping because of all that emotional overload. Not much to do before they decide to work on themselves and to want to help themselves… Once in a while, I try to remind myself that simply because I might consider a path to be destructive, that might not apply to others, it might bring them the kind of satisfaction they crave, so I should probably stay out of it unless I see signs of struggle. Of course, that’s a lot easier said than done when it comes to somebody close…
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Happy Thanksgiving!
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to you too!
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Happy Thanksgiving!
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thanks passion dew
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Happy thanks giving dear 🙂
Gday ahead
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Thanks
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Hope you had a great Thanksgiving, Yvette. Love the poem, and the “Gobble On” made me smile. 🙂
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Hi S! We had a nice holiday and hope you did as well!
Thanks for dropping by…
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Happy Thanksgiving! Gobble! Gobble!
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This is one stunning poem! A real tour de force! So deep and powerful! It gripped me and spoke right to my heart… I am truly amazed by those wonderful lines, there are far too many that leave a deep impression in me to recite them here but know, that I´ll keep your poem in my mind and think it over and over…
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Well thanks miss g – and I actually just modified this poem and used it somewhere else – which I will tell you about later.
But I really appreciate the feedback – I wrote this version in one sitting and it just flowed – after a few weeks of thinking –
Have a great day !
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That´s wonderful that you wrote it in one sitting! I can only imagine how it must have felt to bring this unto the paper! Keep letting your heart pour into those wonderful poems! 🙂
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oh thanks Miss G – and I have been writing little poems like this all of my life – so it is more of a processing for me – and just something I do like breathing and eating – ha!
have a great day
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Ahh, that´s it, isn´t it? Doing art and feel that it is a very essential part of your own soul that you would never be able to part from it… 🙂
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